Tomsick in NYC

It’s been awhile since I’ve slept next to you. I’ve missed it.”

The woman scoffed at her boyfriend with amusement for such a comment before she curled up next to him. After all, he’d only been gone for the weekend. As the lights went out, on their side of the curtain and on mine, I felt homesickness lump up in my throat for the first time since I moved.

I miss his laughing eyes, deep and blue, a blue that brightens and dims with his mood.

I miss his comfort, the touch of my hand in his.

I miss his Cubs hat, and nights when I would try to at least pretend to understand the game.

I miss the way he knows me, the way he seems to have an extra chip in his brain that translates what I’m saying when I can’t quite articulate it.

When I went away to Paris before my junior year in college, I left him behind and, in all the excitement, I left him for good.

Now I’ve left for NYC and he stayed behind, but I haven’t left him. I won’t be able to make myself a home here without him.

So I’m homesick in New York, or Tomsick as I like to put it. (He hates that term). I just hope my silent gulps trying to control the lump in my throat weren’t audible to the happy couple who were so kind as to let me stay with them last night.

An angry woman

Posted On 16 July 2008

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It’s been a beautiful week, both in weather and in my good fortune, but I’m angry.

A gorgeous woman wakes up every day with a thought toward success, a thought toward goodness, and sure, a thought toward getting through another day. Honestly, it could be a man, but because of the way it turns out, it happens to matter that this person is a woman.

She’s a reporter. She has always been told that reporters tell the truth, that they should avoid any sort of personal relationship with those about whom they report. So when a man begins crossing that line, as any good reporter would do, she tells her editor, and he tells his adviser. But they don’t believe her, despite her years of loyal service to the paper, despite her experience, despite her reasons for protecting the reporters who follow her. Why?

Because — God forbid — she cried when she realized they didn’t see her side. She was frustrated that the people she trusted in turned against her, because although she had never complained over anything in the years she had worked there, they said she must be over reacting.

Women are not asking for world domination. We are not asking for college scholarships that belong to equally qualified men. We simply ask that men take us seriously, that they consider our testimonies as truth and look into our suggestions as something valid.

All I can say is, thank god the job I just accepted is supervised by a woman.

The City (that means Manhattan for all you out-of-towners)

Posted On 7 July 2008

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I’m sweating. Police sirens bleep here in jutted intervals. The city thumps to the beat of people walking as they listen to their iPods. And if the city of Babble ever existed, New York City has got to be the closest modern counterpart because everyone speaks a different language here.

And it has stolen my heart.

Last night I saw the last remnant of the Fourth of July as I stepped out of the subway station and looked up at the Empire State Building, lit up with red, white and blue against the evening fog. A street vendor rambled to his buddy in some Eastern language I didn’t recognize this morning; the he paused, smiled and asked me in perfect English if I wanted mustard on my hot dog.

Every moment here I experience something that makes me smile. I have tons of photos I want to post…I will as soon as I get a camera connector to my computer.

Note on 08/01: I started a new blog on this topic: Hostel to Hoboken.